Joining in today with another Five Minute Friday. Today’s word theme is “Should.”
A master to so many.
A master of mine. For too long.
A banner that flew over my mind, shouting out demands, always too late.
If only I had… what if… it would have been better if…
You should have.
Commands motivated by guilt, targeted at the insecure heart.
Only the weak in spirit fall for it, for the cries that say, “you’d be someone if you… because you should, you know.”
Always with a tinge of “I know better than you” behind its disdainful look.
A good mom should…
A good Christian should…
a good wife should…
or should not…
But should has had control too long. No more will I succumb to what should be or should have been. Instead, I plant myself in now. In what is. in what was. In what can be.
And I own it.
I own the mistakes I’ve made and will make, and trust that “in all things, God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28). No mistake is unused by Him.
No longer will the regrets of should overshadow the joy of God’s grace. I allow God’s conviction and not this world’s should-full regrets, because “Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death” (2 Corinthians 7:10).
What is, is.
We can move forward, informed and learned by the lessons of life, by our mistakes, by failures. Or we can sit and wallow in what could have been or should have been. Wasted years of precious life.
Instead, I choose to live as honest as I can, raw, authentic, broken… and rejoice! Because “he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me'” (2 Corinthians 12:9).
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